its just about me

Saturday, April 2 -

"Hmm, i wonder where i went wrong whether i hurt you or whether i was not caring enough. But i can't seem to find any answers. And as much as i hate being in these situations, i'm willing to try to survive through the hurt or agony for the sake of my happiness. I'm willing to sacrifice any thing to regain all my undying strength i used to have on myself. I'm not mad with you, but i tell you that, i had no intentions to pick a fight. I'm sorry. Sorry, that i wasn't aware of your pissed-ness. Never meant to hurt you or make you ponder alone about things. I wonder why we can't share thoughts easily...shissh.. i don't mind waiting and giving you the time you want. Mayb u're afraid to get hurt again, i'll never know, till u tell me. But all i do know is, u're Juffri Jumaat... the one in my life now. Sorry for everything sweetie.. sorry."

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"Maybe it's my fault.Theres no point playin cat & mouse game. Coz there'll be no end to it.. dear. and i don't know. But do tell me my mistakes so i can change. Tell me --~ I hope you'll make time and fix a date we could me - YOU & ME - only. It's been long time since i last saw you or spend time with you. Listen dear, i care bout you. And i hope your heart and eyes can see that. If i should go one day, when GOD takes me from this world, just know that i did LOVE you with sincerity. Till then, i look forward to each day, praying clouds don't hand over me. But sunlight to brighten up my days. I'm here - call me dear, - 'cause been missin you. ~SORRY AGAIN~ I lOVE U"

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"Hello dear! Another card again.. so boring eh ~sowwie~ but it's cute ah! Well, how have u been? Never really got chances to chit-chat long² on the phone to ask how things were, how ur trip to Langkawi was. Niwae, it's okay with me. Just want to say, sorry if we had a so-called "arguement"~ if that's what u call it. Ermmz, juz wondering what's the cause of it. U know u can tell me, i juz don't care cause i'd rather be told rather than bein' kept in da dark abt it. As u know, not all humans are perfect, and for all my flaws, i'm sorry on my part. I can't make promises but i know that i'm always willing to be there for you. No matter what - juz ingat that. Love's not a compromise, but it's when 2 different pple of same/equal differences or totally opposites meet and share a bonding. I'm sorry for my shortcomings. Take time to know me, take time of all that u want. I LOVE YOU DEAR. GOOD NYTE, SWEET DREAMS, SLEEP TITEZ."

LUV, PEACE OUT!
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i was cleaning my room when i came across these 3 postcards that she gave me. Dated 140603. Reading this thru makes me feel like a moron. With this, i wanna make my future relationships a better one, learn from my mistakes.

i was bored, so i thought y not i share my foolishness.

thank you for ur time. love u all. especially H( u dunno who u r ).

joop hangs on the sloper at 1:15 am